OVER THINKING

My mind is going crazy.

I blame part of it on having too much time at work.

I blame part of it on being pregnant.

And I blame part of it on being in the market for a house.

Time Times Time. My office is slow...and it doesn't take all the time I have to do my job (even if I do it well, I have PLENTY of time.) Which is nice. But also kind of annoying. Like last week my boss took of 3 days, and when he's gone, I still come in, but there is even less to do then before. So I surf the world-wide-web. I do online shopping, online bill-pay, catch up on the celebrity gossip, email, look at my pregnancy progression on multiply websites, I blog and facebook and facebook and blog, but you get bored of all of it quickly. Last week I brought burp clothes with me to work and I finished crocheting around 2 and a half of them. I don't like crocheting but it did help to keep me at lest, "busy". I just looked up online how:) . One day I brought in my cricut and worked the ENTIRE day on this "project" that I hated, but it was better than nothing and otherwise I would have had to do it at home. All the time I have, I can't help but letting my mind OBSESSES with the stupidest things and I drive myself absolutely nuts. Like right now...I'm NUTS. My mind is fried. I've done too much thinking today.

Prego-Minded - The unknown makes you think a lot, and bringing a child into this earth also makes you think even more. Not only think, but worry, anticipate, and daydream. I hear it's fairly normal for pregnant women to get "pregnancy minds" and kinda be in their own world. (which is me, to the T.) I make myself crazy by thinking of the expenses a baby will bring, worrying about how the crap I'm going to be able to take care and teach a child all the things that I should, daydreaming about how our lives are going to be forever changed and anticipating all the things a child will bring to our family.

There are also other additions happening to my family that make my mind work overtime. My sister is expecting a little one the same time as we are, and my brother just announced he's engaged to be married in October. It's such a crazy time!! 3 additions in just a few weeks of each other! Our family is growing at an INCREDIBLE SPEED and it's so fun to think of all the new members we will soon have!! But it also makes my head spin!!

House Hunting. We have been looking for a house for a long time but waiting til we find THE ONE. Looking at houses becomes all too easily an obsession. I've spent way too much time (always at work though, so that's a plus!) searching the Internet for homes. Not even always homes for us, but I just look. Look to see what's out there, and what's selling, and how long homes are on the market. When I find one I like, the obsession gets worse. I figure out what the house payments would be, and drive myself crazy with all sorts of silly details. Some of the details wouldn't be silly if we were really moving into the house, but every house gets tiring. I think of what I would change first if we moved there, or what I really like about the house, and ALWAYS where I'd keep my scrapbook stuff in each house. What colors I'd want to paint the rooms....and so on and on and on and on.

Well we may have found a house we'd really like to buy. Which is even more exhausting than just looking. Now my mind is racing - and nonstop - about where to put the furniture, what work we'll need to do immediately if we do get it, and what things could wait til after the baby or even further down the road. I've figured our budget I don't know how many times, I've shopped how much appliances will cost, I've started packing in my mind even. I am making myself CRAZY!!